A couple of years ago I got conned into participating in an event called Hell and Back. This was a 14k run up and down a mountain in the freezing cold, sometimes carrying a log, or tyres and involved a lot of climbing. There was a section of the course where I had to climb up two burley men who then flung me over the top of a wall which I was supposed to grab and climb gracefully over. Needless to say there was nothing graceful about me overshooting the top and falling the ten feet onto a pile of tyres. Stay with me, this story is going somewhere. When I hit that pile of tyres and ran to my partner I thought I had reached the end and was delirious with relief. I had not. I was quickly informed I still had 5k to go. That is how I feel at the moment about dieting.
Not trying to be melodramatic but I can see the finish line but I’m not even half way there. I really am being good with regard to food. I’ve had salads for dinner three times this week. While I really like salads, I also really like a chipper. The toughest part of being on a diet is not watching what you eat, its watching what other people eat. With only a few weeks left I really want to make the two stone. I know I have miles to go after I finish this challenge but I genuinely think I will continue to do this. I might not be meeting Karen every week or writing for Magazine + but I have definitely changed how I feel about food.
I obviously have an addictive personality. This is a problem when you love food so much. This week I had the opportunity to have a wind down. This is a rare and exhilarating experience for me. I’m usually so busy that I don’t have time to scratch myself but this week I had four days to do whatever I felt like doing. The first day I cleaned my house from top to bottom. It is now an OCD haven. My fitbit calculated way over my 10k steps after the scrubfest.
The second day I did a very stupid thing. I logged onto Netflix. First error. There was a recommendation for me to watch a programme called The Big Bang Theory, I clicked in. Second error. Two days later, four seasons in I am admitting to myself I have a problem. While I haven’t eaten anything bad or drank anything that will leave me in a state of inebriation, there is now a Joy shaped dent in the corner of my couch. I’m also dreaming about being in this show, this is never a good sign. My fitbit calculated under 10k steps both days. Don’t worry, I am hanging my head in shame.
The only solution to this is to place a large full length mirror under the TV and maybe eat dinner naked while looking into the mirror. I believe this would be a great tool in the war against gaining weight. I certainly know that if I was to watch myself eating naked in a mirror it would be enough to turn me off my food. Anyway, when I spoke to Karen this week I explained how I was feeling. There is no quick fix to losing weight. She encouraged me and told me I was losing weight the right way, slow and steady and I am on the way to winning this race!